it calls me on
resisting
it calls me mad
in swift passing
gives me pleasure
yet sad
more sad
than missing
the little things
that to others
bring happy tears
are the many
misspent years
forgotten
while striving
to be remembered
thinking
altogether too much
such is time
and time is such
a bitter — yet
in the living of it
sweet — pill
swallowed up whole
in guilt
and mad raving
travesty
that i cry
no not i
never
© 1983